My Soap Opera Scene

Know the part in TV shows or movies, when one of the love interest finally opens up to the other love interests and says all their flaws so their lover can take them or leave them? I have been watching Grey's Anatomy (I just started it, I am on season 2. Surprisingly amazing! I am obsessed already), trust me it happens.

So I was thinking, what would I say? What are my take it or leave its?

I am opinionated, honest and indecisive. I procrastinate everything, school or otherwise. I have awful study skills. I play to many games on my phone. I am social awkward and say the wrong thing at the wrong time. I don't know what I want. And I don't shower everyday, sometimes I smell funny.

Then my big handsome lover looks into my eyes and kisses me. Because he accepts me and my quirks.

Or he looks into my eyes sadly lowers he's head. Maybe mumbles "I'm sorry," and walks away.

Story book ending. I don't think that is what happens in real life, well maybe the second. But what do I know.

Random Though #6

Loincloth is such a great word! I need to start using this more... We should bring loincloths back in style!

Hello my name is Jenna, Jaguar Jenna

Kira gave a lovely introduction to herself; leaving out the fact she is an excellent gift giver. She ended wanted to know more about us. So here it goes...

Hi, my name is Jenna.
I'm a shy, introvert who is social awkward but friendly. My friends don't believe them when I tell them this because I am a whole lot of crazy with buckets of goofy thrown in. When I am comfortable around you, watch out.

I love to laugh. I find myself ridiculously funny and spend a majority of the day laugh at myself. I love other people's laugh. I love funny people. You get the picture. (And while I love people who think I am funny as well I also love people who don't think I am funny and don't take my crap. I liked to be humbled when necessary.)

I find people fascinating. I want to know everything about them. I am also terrified of people. Crowds make me anxious. I don't like to be in the way.

I collect postcards, quarters, and the president gold dollars. I used to have a big rock collect but I only have a few now. I am also a hoarder. I don't like to throw things away. My bulletin board at home has things from before 3rd grade on it. I don't take things off of it. Only add.

I have a (completely rational) fear that bugs will crawl in my ear and lay eggs while I am sleeping.

I love to read and write but I am not very good at either. I am a better at math and science. But I am still not very good at them. I am of very average intelligence but I like to think otherwise.

When I encounter a area code I don't know I like to look them up. I want to learn them all one day. Or at least know what state the phone number is from by seeing the area code.

I want to travel the world. Anywhere and everywhere I can touch, I want to be there. I want to go to all 50 states by the time I am 50. I have been to 39 so far. Along with that, I wish I knew every languages. I am learning Spanish, but I'm not very good.

I am extremely self conscious about everything. But I am self conscious of my self consciousness so I try to hide it whenever I can.

I decided that I want a hedgehog. They are soooo cute. Hedgehog in spanish is erizo. 

That me. Jenna. Take it or leave it.

We missed out.

I found an article on buzzfeed, "10 graduation speeches that will inspire and move you." While studying or taking a study break I have been watching/listening to all of them. They are all really interesting and each give me multiple new things to think about.

I think back to our commencement. I think about the speeches we heard upon graduating from high school and am utterly disappointing... I don't mean to be insulting and I am not saying that we chose bad speeches. But looking back I honestly don't remember what two of them were about. The third was about how failure doesn't exist which was a bunch of bull. Failure totally exists. I am pretty sure I failed all of my physics exams last year.

When I hear this speeches, they leave me with something to remember and think about. Granted they are from adults who lived more life than we had when we are giving our speeches at the end of high school. Granted most of them are famous, successful adults who worked hard and fought through adversity to get where they are in their career. But I can't help but wonder. What would I have wished the speeches had been about? If I had gotten off my fat, lazy ass, what would I have said in my commencement speech? What knowledge did I gain from high school? What do I need to know to make it through college/the years after high school?

You are probably think, "Cool Jenna, good thoughts. Now let's hear it! What would your commencement speech be like, what would you say?"

And to that I say.... [If you can't beat them, join 'em...] (Jk... That was a Bo reference though...)

I have an O-chem exam tomorrow.... Well actually later today, so..... I am going to go study for that... But stay tuned. I do want to write my own commencement speech. In due time.

http://www.buzzfeed.com/h2/fbsp/strayeruniversity/10-graduation-speeches-that-will-inspire-and-move-you

I wish, I want, I wail

I wish I were smarter. More focused. More efficient.

I wish my ever ending pile of work would disappear. And I would know all the information it contains.

I want to be better. To learn. To focus. To get work done.

But I don't.

Instead I fester in my own frustration. Wishing and wanting to do better. Be better.

All I can do is putter along. Hope that the work won't overwhelm me in a way where I shut down and become even more unproductive than my average self.

All I can do is hope that I learn all that I need to. Read the necessary chapters. Do the necessary assignments. At the very least by class rolls around, or the day of the exam.

But the work never ends. Whether I blame it on being a science major or my unbelievably awful study habits. It is what it is.

Life moves on.

A Peak into my Life #1

I started to add to my grocery list in google search because I am too lazy to go get the list and I don't want to forget! I am currently search for chicken nuggets vs. hot dogs. #SPOILER If the price is right I am going to buy them both.

Random thought #5

How awesome is it that a state who voted on banning gay marriage turned around and legalized it 6 months later?! I couldn't be more proud of the change in heart of Minnesota! It's a piece of good news, that gives me at least one good thing to think about amid all my finals....

Random Thought #4

Thrash is a good word. I should say it more. As of now I am going to try to make it have a regular appearance in my vocabulary.

Random Thought #3

I wonder how strong your legs would get if you hovered every time you went to the bathroom... I bet they would get tone.

Random thought #2

Silent study den's aren't the best place to drink out of a camelbak... 

Promise I am not farting! It's just my waterbottle!!

Random though #1

I have a theory that once  you become sexual active you have a pregnancy scary every month.

P.s. This has not been personally tested so maybe I should call it a hypothesis.

THE OBESITY EPIDEMIC (even the title is FAT)

I have just come to a conclusion.

There are no facts to back it, I don't know if it's possible or plausible. The idea popped into my head and it seems logical in the moment so I am going to publish it for the world to see. Why not!?

America's "obesity epidemic" has been the talk of the town for a while now. We are getting fatter! Now that it has come to our attention the government and everyone is trying to find a way to stop (and reverse) it. Our attention turned to New York as they looking into passing laws limiting the sugar in food (I believe it had to do with soda... but it could have also been candy or food in general and I don't know exactly what came of the proposals... Like I said I haven't done my research...). My dad sent me an article (a while ago but I just sort of looked through it today) talking about the role the government should play in fighting obesity.

The ways I have heard of the government fighting obesity, similar to New York, is taxing or trying to regulate unhealthy foods. This is where my idea comes into play.

Instead of banning or limiting the unhealthy food out there (since indulging and eating unhealthy food in moderation isn't necessarily that bad for you) the government should try to help make healthy food more accessible and affordable. As a college student, it would be great to have a fridge filled with fresh produce and healthy snacks but when a green pepper cost $3 at my local grocery store it's just not possible. When I look at healthy foods in the store they always seems more expensive.

Being healthy is hard!! I worked out today but I can't say I work out as much as a should... I try to eat fruits and veggies but it's expensive! (and fries and pizza might taste goodddd....) But the government telling me what foods I CAN'T eat isn't going to make me make the healthy choice. Stubborn me is simply going to find other unhealthy foods to eat and add another teaspoon of sugar to my soda.

Right now, my view on how the government should deal with the "issue of obesity" would be to help us be able to more easily live a healthy life! I am thinking something along the lines of helping make fruit and vegetables and other healthy food easier for us to eat (but I will give them creative ability on this one).

Maybe I will actually do real research on this topic, (since it is interesting!) and write an educated post... But for now... :)

VLOGGG just for you. And my procrastination. :)

Slacking like a champ

I am such a slacker. Shall we make a list of the the reasons why!? Why not :)

1. I haven't written a blog post in forever
2. I haven't even looked at blogger in forever (besides reading Taylor Shiff's speech for graduation, which she linked to facebook so it's was super simple...) so I am really behind on blogs! well Kira's...
3. I am behind on reads for chem and physics... which isn't a huge deal, but still! What else have I been doing with my life, I could be keeping up
4. I still have not started (**SIDE NOTE. I just sneezed REALLY loud... it scared me...**) revising my spanish composition due tomorrow at 9:55am (it's currently 1:01 (A PALONDROM) and it's not like I am in a huge rush to start, aka the reason for this blog post)
5. I haven't watched Gossip Girl, or any of my shows (HIMYM, bones, psych, etc) in forever
6. For the past, going on three weeks now, I haven't really done homework on Wednesday or Thursday night... (maybe motivation is what I need) 
7. I am really good at distracting myself so I don't do productive things... 
8. WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?!?

Well on that note. 

I just feel so lazy and unproductive lately and lack consisted motivation (meaning I go through stretches of doing stufff and then I get days like today where... I have done nothing... GRANTED I did start class at 7:45am had a 2ish hour lunch break where I ate lunch and sat outside reading chem notes for my quiz I had this afternoon while people told me that I listen to weird music... and then I didn't get home until after 8pm. SO I did do stufff today. Just not homework. Like this composition (the spanish one, see #4)! But it's annoying! I just want to power through until finals and then enjoy the summer after I have done well in classes! BUT NO. My mind and body apparently think this is not a good plan and are all "no let's not focus and finish your homework. Studying? What's that?? LET JUST WING IT." Grrrrrrr mind. stoppppppp. AND it doesn't help that I have been in a weird mood for the past TWOISH weeks... Which is annoying on it's own! And it's an inconsistent weird mood... It's a mix of being grumpy, more rude, semi sassy, a tad less talkative, a little more tired and a mix of other emotions I just don't even know... I was trying to figure out why I haven't totally been myself and what was up with the mood changes and I feel like it sort of has to do with stress and school and everything but I am not totally sure... Right before spring break I failed a physics test. Technically curved it was a BC or C (BC is a B- or something... I don't know Madison is weird, it confuses people, I DIDN'T MAKE THE SYSTEM) but it was a 55%. So I failed. And that was dumb. I was super mad at myself (/am still frustrated). Physics sucks. Or I suck at physics. Or a combo of both but probably just the latter. Since I am not doing as well in that class as I want to be and I am also not doing as well in chem as I want to be, I sort have been worrying about that... I've been trying to work harder in them and I have stayed in more to work on school stuff (though I normally just get distracted and go on youtube etc. so it's pointless). I actually did okay on my last chem test! It was a grade I was happy with and I think I can get an AB in the class which is good :) But I didn't even do much better on my last physics test... Though the curve was 10 points lower which is helpful... It's just discouraging... ALSO I just all of the sudden decided to change my mind and not double major in Spanish and not study abroad for a year and just do fall semester junior year and be open to going somewhere English speaking and not just Spanish speaking. It was super random. I was just "no. I am not doing this life plan anymore. Let's find a new one." Which for me, is sort of super weird... Spontaneity is great but I don't have it when it comes to things like this... It took me like three days to mentally prepare for taking home my box from Mixed Media 1! It's not even like it was that big (in size)! Last week I was super into figuring out what I was going to do with my life and looked into new study abroad programs etc. but now I've mellowed a little. Though I was stressing/ freaking about that for a bit... Oh and I forgot that I have the classes figured out that I am gonna take next year and I think it's gonna be hard and I am not totally excited for them.... Though with my change of heart about Spanish makes my spring semester will be a bit easier. My mom was also freaking out about my schedule and telling me I should change it or drop something and it was REALLY annoying/more stressful since I have to take everything I am taking to not fall more behind, especially since studying abroad for any amount of time is gonna set me back. (GRIFFIN'S HOME (my neighbor who is never home. It's always exciting when we see him because we never see him... and no one knows him...)) So I feel like all of that just manifested and has made me in a weird mood. This is also the first time I have talked it all out so hopefully this post will be helpful for my soul. It's a bummer though, I feel bad that I have been more grumpy etc... My friends have said stuff, and some of it I am just teasing and they take the wrong way (which I guess is still an issue, but a separate one) but I think my mood is affecting them in a negative way... I try to apologize though and say I am just not myself right now. Though it might be a direct affect of my mood, or something I am making up because of my mood but I also feel like they have started to be more mean to me too. I just noticed it the last few days but they are all teasing me more and not just like cute every now and then teasing that is obviously teasing (that I appreciate and think is cute and participate in) but teasing teasing like "oh that's how you feel I'll just go sit in the corner by myself because I don't know how to respond and I am not feeling this conversation." I am probably just being melodramatic, because that has also been a common emotion (or reaction? what is melodramatic?) of the past few weeks... 

WELL ANY WHO. It's been over an hour. and I should probably actually do homework. or make a vlog... ;) this was definitely a diaryish entry... so sorry if it's awk. I should probably delete a lot of it but that sounds like a lot of work and it was sort of nice to type it all out :) Hopefully I go back to my normal Jenna self soon! The ADD has obviously not gone away ;) #seeallthoserandomcommentsinmypost

Writing Assignments that Never Were

"Ahhhhh!"

What the heck? What is she doing? What happened!!!???!


I look over to a girl Spanish class waving her notebook around like an idiot. She was up out of her desk freaking out about God knows what.

Does she always have to be so dramatic? Seriously, take a chill pill. 

It turns out there was some sort of bug on her notebook.

Come on! Is it really that big of a deal? It's just a little bug, I deal with them all the time when I am out in the wilderness fishing. No big deal. Grow a pair will you. Well I guess she is a girl so that saying doesn't totally work... But still! Stop screeching in my ear!! 

"Are you okay?" I ask, a hint of distant in my voice.

"Sorry, there was a bug... It scared me. Lo siento."

"Yeah I could tell..." I whispered under my breath.

"What did you say?" She asked in response.

"Oh nothing," I replied, "back to Spanish?"

"Yeah of course" she said as we turned back to our work.

* * *

Remember when, I believe it was Fatima, assigned us the blog post that was supposed to be how someone else in your class viewed you? Well better late then never they always say :) I had started this a while ago and now I don't really remember what happened so I just made stuff up and made it short... But now I can say I completed the assignment!