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Slacking like a champ

I am such a slacker. Shall we make a list of the the reasons why!? Why not :)

1. I haven't written a blog post in forever
2. I haven't even looked at blogger in forever (besides reading Taylor Shiff's speech for graduation, which she linked to facebook so it's was super simple...) so I am really behind on blogs! well Kira's...
3. I am behind on reads for chem and physics... which isn't a huge deal, but still! What else have I been doing with my life, I could be keeping up
4. I still have not started (**SIDE NOTE. I just sneezed REALLY loud... it scared me...**) revising my spanish composition due tomorrow at 9:55am (it's currently 1:01 (A PALONDROM) and it's not like I am in a huge rush to start, aka the reason for this blog post)
5. I haven't watched Gossip Girl, or any of my shows (HIMYM, bones, psych, etc) in forever
6. For the past, going on three weeks now, I haven't really done homework on Wednesday or Thursday night... (maybe motivation is what I need) 
7. I am really good at distracting myself so I don't do productive things... 
8. WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?!?

Well on that note. 

I just feel so lazy and unproductive lately and lack consisted motivation (meaning I go through stretches of doing stufff and then I get days like today where... I have done nothing... GRANTED I did start class at 7:45am had a 2ish hour lunch break where I ate lunch and sat outside reading chem notes for my quiz I had this afternoon while people told me that I listen to weird music... and then I didn't get home until after 8pm. SO I did do stufff today. Just not homework. Like this composition (the spanish one, see #4)! But it's annoying! I just want to power through until finals and then enjoy the summer after I have done well in classes! BUT NO. My mind and body apparently think this is not a good plan and are all "no let's not focus and finish your homework. Studying? What's that?? LET JUST WING IT." Grrrrrrr mind. stoppppppp. AND it doesn't help that I have been in a weird mood for the past TWOISH weeks... Which is annoying on it's own! And it's an inconsistent weird mood... It's a mix of being grumpy, more rude, semi sassy, a tad less talkative, a little more tired and a mix of other emotions I just don't even know... I was trying to figure out why I haven't totally been myself and what was up with the mood changes and I feel like it sort of has to do with stress and school and everything but I am not totally sure... Right before spring break I failed a physics test. Technically curved it was a BC or C (BC is a B- or something... I don't know Madison is weird, it confuses people, I DIDN'T MAKE THE SYSTEM) but it was a 55%. So I failed. And that was dumb. I was super mad at myself (/am still frustrated). Physics sucks. Or I suck at physics. Or a combo of both but probably just the latter. Since I am not doing as well in that class as I want to be and I am also not doing as well in chem as I want to be, I sort have been worrying about that... I've been trying to work harder in them and I have stayed in more to work on school stuff (though I normally just get distracted and go on youtube etc. so it's pointless). I actually did okay on my last chem test! It was a grade I was happy with and I think I can get an AB in the class which is good :) But I didn't even do much better on my last physics test... Though the curve was 10 points lower which is helpful... It's just discouraging... ALSO I just all of the sudden decided to change my mind and not double major in Spanish and not study abroad for a year and just do fall semester junior year and be open to going somewhere English speaking and not just Spanish speaking. It was super random. I was just "no. I am not doing this life plan anymore. Let's find a new one." Which for me, is sort of super weird... Spontaneity is great but I don't have it when it comes to things like this... It took me like three days to mentally prepare for taking home my box from Mixed Media 1! It's not even like it was that big (in size)! Last week I was super into figuring out what I was going to do with my life and looked into new study abroad programs etc. but now I've mellowed a little. Though I was stressing/ freaking about that for a bit... Oh and I forgot that I have the classes figured out that I am gonna take next year and I think it's gonna be hard and I am not totally excited for them.... Though with my change of heart about Spanish makes my spring semester will be a bit easier. My mom was also freaking out about my schedule and telling me I should change it or drop something and it was REALLY annoying/more stressful since I have to take everything I am taking to not fall more behind, especially since studying abroad for any amount of time is gonna set me back. (GRIFFIN'S HOME (my neighbor who is never home. It's always exciting when we see him because we never see him... and no one knows him...)) So I feel like all of that just manifested and has made me in a weird mood. This is also the first time I have talked it all out so hopefully this post will be helpful for my soul. It's a bummer though, I feel bad that I have been more grumpy etc... My friends have said stuff, and some of it I am just teasing and they take the wrong way (which I guess is still an issue, but a separate one) but I think my mood is affecting them in a negative way... I try to apologize though and say I am just not myself right now. Though it might be a direct affect of my mood, or something I am making up because of my mood but I also feel like they have started to be more mean to me too. I just noticed it the last few days but they are all teasing me more and not just like cute every now and then teasing that is obviously teasing (that I appreciate and think is cute and participate in) but teasing teasing like "oh that's how you feel I'll just go sit in the corner by myself because I don't know how to respond and I am not feeling this conversation." I am probably just being melodramatic, because that has also been a common emotion (or reaction? what is melodramatic?) of the past few weeks... 

WELL ANY WHO. It's been over an hour. and I should probably actually do homework. or make a vlog... ;) this was definitely a diaryish entry... so sorry if it's awk. I should probably delete a lot of it but that sounds like a lot of work and it was sort of nice to type it all out :) Hopefully I go back to my normal Jenna self soon! The ADD has obviously not gone away ;) #seeallthoserandomcommentsinmypost

Writing Assignments that Never Were

"Ahhhhh!"

What the heck? What is she doing? What happened!!!???!


I look over to a girl Spanish class waving her notebook around like an idiot. She was up out of her desk freaking out about God knows what.

Does she always have to be so dramatic? Seriously, take a chill pill. 

It turns out there was some sort of bug on her notebook.

Come on! Is it really that big of a deal? It's just a little bug, I deal with them all the time when I am out in the wilderness fishing. No big deal. Grow a pair will you. Well I guess she is a girl so that saying doesn't totally work... But still! Stop screeching in my ear!! 

"Are you okay?" I ask, a hint of distant in my voice.

"Sorry, there was a bug... It scared me. Lo siento."

"Yeah I could tell..." I whispered under my breath.

"What did you say?" She asked in response.

"Oh nothing," I replied, "back to Spanish?"

"Yeah of course" she said as we turned back to our work.

* * *

Remember when, I believe it was Fatima, assigned us the blog post that was supposed to be how someone else in your class viewed you? Well better late then never they always say :) I had started this a while ago and now I don't really remember what happened so I just made stuff up and made it short... But now I can say I completed the assignment!

I Wanna Stay Up All Night

During their time at college, students have many rites of passage to experience. One important rite, however dreaded, is the "all nighter." Of course no night full of studying and lack of sleep is complete without ample coffee and other caffeinated beverages. 

I have to admit, this week I did not give myself enough sleep and found myself reaching for another soda to keep awake. But what are the consequences of drinking caffeine? 

Some say a couple caffeinated beverages a day won't do any harm. The Mayo Clinic Staff agrees that two to four cups of coffee isn't the end of the world but you do have to be careful with caffeine. It effects everyone differently and some people can grow dependent on it. Too much caffeine intake can cause insomnia, irritability, nervousness,  restlessness, and physical reactions such as increased heart rate and upset stomach. In college especially, these side affects can make life more difficult and less enjoyable. 

When it is coming up to four o'clock in the morning and you are about to reach for that coke, stop and think about the other ways you could stay awake. Though caffeine is an easy and convenient way to get an extra boost of energy, there are other, more natural, ways to get that same boost.

For example, when you are beginning to doze off, shake yourself awake and try some yoga breathing techniques. This might seem a little silly at first, but it can be a good way to regain your focus and be able to power through the rest of your work. A quick 20 minute power nap can also help get you re-energized. The short break from your studies can do wonders; it gives you a little bit of your much needed rest along with helping your brain get ready to do some more work when you are done. The last tip I have for you, my personal favorite, is play some upbeat music. It gives you more energy and can improve productivity.  I understand that not everyone is able to focus when listening to music. However, I can tell you from experience, sometimes it is helpful to simply take a short break from your work and dance on a table to "Live While You're Young" by One Direction. After the quick three minutes you will be ready to power through your essay before the sun rises!

Sharing Your Opinion or Brutal Attack?

It is good to be politically informed and I respect people who have strong believes and opinions about issues that affect us all. When it comes to the political spectrum I am pretty moderate and take my stand depending on what the issue is. To be honest, I don't know enough about a lot of topics and am not informed enough to have a strong opinions about them.

One issue that I know where I stand is gay marriage. It's a human rights issue to me and it seems like there is no reason two men or women shouldn't be able to get married.
With that being said I respect people who disagree with me and have the opposite view (on this issue and any other). What I don't like, and what I think hurts the cause, are extremist who attack the other sides view and make it seem, that because they think something different, they are stupid and dumb. 

While I was on facebook today I saw this picture:

While I agree that many of the religious reason people think gay marriage shouldn't be legalized don't always make the most sense everyone is initiated to there own religious believes and I understand the importance of being religious. The way this poster is worded seems awfully disrespectful to me. I am filled with mixed emotion, on one hand I do agree that homosexuality is in NO way sinful, the point of the poster. But on the other hand the flow map is telling people that their religious beliefs are completely invalid in a snarky and disrespectful way. The points could be written in a more respectful way to help make the argument more persuasive. It just kills me to see this because it turns a good thing, supporting gay rights, into a disrespectful attack on others beliefs. This isn't the way to get people to change their mind, especially when, things like religious beliefs are deep rooted and are unlikely to change. Unfortunately  many people who are against homosexuality because of religious reason or because they think it is gross aren't going to just change there mind like that and an attacking sassy statement like this just cause more tension and conflict that help. I wish people, especially those with strong believes, could step back for a second and but themselves in the other sides shoes. Then maybe we could have civil conversations and resolve issues like this more reasonable... 

Hopefully one day we will be able to talk civilly and find a solution to this issues. Until then we will just have to work to be respectful and let majority rule.....

Speaking of posts I never published... Look what I found... This is SUPER OLD... First semester senior year old......

I was going to vlog because it sounded really fun but I don't have the time and energy to figure out how my dad's webcam works, etc. But similar to what my vlog would have been like I will talk about the first thing that comes to my head...

Dog food really is disgusting.

It smells so badddd. Whenever I feed my dog I hold my breath to try and block out as much of the grossness as possible. Unfortunately for me I am neither a swimmer or a singer so I can't hold my breath for very long... I have never been daft enough to try dog food but I bet it is one of those foods that tastes exactly how it smells. Blech. I don't know how my dog eats that stuff! I guess it's just a matter of eating what your served. Thankfully we don't give him wet food, just dry, because wet dog food is one of the grossest thing ever.

We used to dog sit for our old neighbors. The last time we watched him we had to give him half wet food because he was medicated and would only eat his pills if we mixed it in with wet food. I wanted to barf every time I saw or smelled it. And my mom put in into a tuperware in the refrigerator, so it was right next to all the food I ate. Blechhhhhhh it was so icky! I have heard that dogs prefer wet food. Too bad for my dog, I am not about to get him any.

My dog is awesome but I will spoil him in other ways than fancy food.

19 Days.

19 days is all it took and now its official. Homesick. It's an interesting word but for those who have felt the feeling, it describes it perfectly. To feel physical and mentally sick, for the only cure to be back home with friends and family that you know and love. Though for many of us who have gone of to college we realize when we do come home nothing will be exactly the same. I wasn't sure if I was going to feel homesick. I knew I would miss my dog and my friends. I assumed I would miss my family at times but I had no idea if I would feel the overwhelming feeling homesickness the way I did. I have been really luck to live in a dorm with people I get along with a feel like I'm connecting with and can become good friends with. But even so I miss the familiarization of being with the same people I have know for years. The feeling hit me when I was in Rosh Hashana services. The service was similar to what I knew but yet so very completely different and I didn't like it. I wanted my Rabbis and my melodies and my synagogue. Then that evolved into wanting to sleep in my bed, hang out with my friends and be in my house. But change is inevitable and probably easier when you just embrace it instead of fighting it. No matter how far you go, everyone feels homesick sometime in your life. But it passes and it will be interesting to see, maybe over the summer I will become homesick for Madison... Only time will tell! I will keep you posted :)


Also, I really like how I have an idea for a blog post. Start writing it. And then never edit or post it so it just sits as a draft until weeks later I finally finish and post it... :)